In 14 days I turn 23. Knowing that I’m still in college and not able to claim much to my name, I am absolutely dreading the coming two weeks.
It really sucks that people age differently and success comes at different times upon each individuals life. If you would have asked 17 year old Jared, he would have told you I would be well on my way to being a millionaire by now. Unfortunately, this is jar from the case.
Recently, a handful of mishaps have accumulated. For starters, I lost my scholarship due to not meeting the criteria stated. This was a hard blow, as I reasoned almost 3 weeks ago that I should come back to Tech as the opportunity cost was very low because of my scholarship.
Additionally, I seem to have been floating these past few weeks. No great achievements by any means, and I feel stuck on many levels.
It’s clear that I’m not succeeding as I would hope, since I am asking myself “is this what life is like” many times recently. Perhaps I should speak of the good, and the fortune that has been brought my way.
Since I have last wrote, a handful of pleasantly nice happenings have occurred within my life. For starters, I was able to place first at the College of Media & Communications Pitch competition, taking home a cash prize of $3,500 (after dividing it within the team, my real take home was closer to $3,000). I held a summer internship at CoreLogic in Westlake, where I was placed as “Sales Operations Intern”. Realistically, it was a hybrid inside sales/account management role. From what I gather within the exit interview, I had a very respectable performance. My manager and a handful of my fellow peers have positive remarks regarding my tenure.
Mid summer, I was able to fly out to Phoenix, Arizona to visit Hannah for a weekend. Throughout the summer, I have had multiple opportunities to sail, and have even made some rough plans to sail the Florida Keys with my sailing partner Matthew, come winter. Additionally, fly fishing is a hobby that I find much pleasure in and look forward to improving within that.
Texas Tech has been good to me thus far. The gentlemen within my fraternity seemed to be pleasantly surprised at my return to Tech this fall. Classes seem to be interesting as a whole; however, I still do not feel as if the funds that are meant to go toward tuition are a good return on investment.
Relations within my family have improved, and I am now finally having open communication with my mom which was unexpected to say the least. Some time during the beginning of August, I was prompted to purchase a newer vehicle as the 2004 Honda Accord finally gave out.
Despite the good, there is still much to be worked on. I did not execute on CheapEats this summer whatsoever. I did not make any money from DFWPAS although I easily could have. I did not build my speargun. I did not take a blue water trip. I did not end up going to Austin for Makersquare (which actually may be a blessing). I did not improve my figure or health to what I can see.
I’m chasing a different path of life this semester, this year. More friends, more relationships. Focus on those close to you; build them up and love them. Start attending church again. Stop smoking. Practice gratitude, and de-clutter a majority of your life. Pursue CheapEats, and re-learn how to be different. Conformity is the last thing to benefit you, at this stage in life, with your goals in life.
There has been much to grow up from, but it is all good and well worth it. 23 is scary, but then again, there is much to be thankful for.